love this---QUADRON-SLIPPIN

VIDEO: QUADRON-SLIPPIN

GOD BLESS AMERICA, AND GOD BLESS THE GAYS.

Alejandro.

First off, I absolutely adore lady gaga. She is the most refreshing "pop" singer I have ever witnessed. People always criticize her use of references to other musicians, Such as: Madonna, Janet Jackson, Even the song's chorus has the "Ace of Base" sound of," I saw the sign".... However, I love that she uses references to other people, musicians, that she admires. I think by putting her own twist on their ideas, she makes it her own. Honestly, isnt that what all musicians or performance artists do? They have their own idols they look up to, and they will always have their influence in them, and, therefore it is projected into their work. I think GAGA is coming into her own, and I am loving it! I honestly love how her videos are almost short films. At least this one, and the last one, and I know it will only keep getting better! Until then, keep rockin' on GAGA. You are PRICELESS, LITTLE MONSTER!!

Splice

I went and saw splice tonight. It's the new adrian brody movie. It is bout two scientists who splice an animal/organism/monster looking thing (they created through splicing seven different animals) and hum DNA. The movie was insane the entire time. Things just got crazier and crazier as the movie went through. It was pretty interesting, but the main, obvious theme of the movie is what could go wrong, or happen, when manipulating animal DNA with any type of human DNA. The moral of the story, basically, DON'T EVEN ATTEMPT TO PLAY GOD. The theme was really cool, because our society is constantly batteing moral issues and technological research. I know there are plenty of things going on with the government, that, naturally, the average civilian, including myself, doesn't know. Hopefully, they have not actually done such a thing, because according to Splice, everyone dies and end up either doing the alien/ monster creation, or getting raped by it. And, inevitably getting murdered or knocked up by an alien species that is both male and female. I must say, it literally kept everyone in the theater entertained. There were a couple of girls that were sitting behind me, who were freaked out the whole movie, as was I as the plot thickened. By the time the alien species does the nasty with Adrian Brody, an entire family dipped out with a quickness. "I just can't handle this anymore," I could here the father complaining as the whole family walked out. It was great. I recommend the movie, because it is considerable to the NEW alien. I predict it will be a cult classic, because no one has really come out with a film that entirely involves splicing DNA-- and making a new species. At least, not in a long time, or definitely at least not one worth a damn. You will most definitely walk out discussing the movie, along with every one else in the theater.

guess i won't be sleeping for a while

Well,

So many things have happened over the course of a couple of weeks. Throughout all of these hard times, sometimes it just feels like, "how could things get better?" its hard to even write. i know i can't really say all that i want, even if i did, it just wouldn't come out right. too bad there is always a risk of someone you know reading your blog. just because, I wish i speak freely and uncensored. It's completely censored, clearly i have not said a word of what i am truly going through. ok another pointless post.

Who is Shara Elizabeth?

Shattered Glass

The dusty old picture of Jon that I found in my old closet(at my parents house) was a BLAST from the Past. It had been ages since I heard from him. I noticed the picture, keep in mind was ten years old, was in a picture frame with shattered glass. Bad luck for seven years?! Does that apply with glass, I hope not, seeing as I had just broken my Sephora carry around mirror, it made me feel it was sign that I was becoming to vain. Oh well what can you do? I decided that moment I had to show Jon the old picture I found of him.

Jon.

Jon was my very first love in the world. I met him in middle school and dated him all throughout the beginning of high school. I absolutely adored him, to this day. His bright personality and love for life just drew every one to him. You could say he's irresistible. Not a bad bone it that body of his. We remained close friends after we broke up, but as the college years ravaged through my life, we drifted a part. However, Jon's the type of person you can talk to like no time has passed at all. He always seems to understand and encourage me when he knew I needed it. A true, loyal friend.

It was decided I had to see him sometime soon. I have realized over the years good friends, I mean true friends, are nearly impossible to find. And, if your lucky enough to have them, hold on to them. They are worth the pain they may cause, the drama, the tears, or whatever the case may be. Because who are you, if know one knows the real YOU? Life just isn't worth living without those unforgettable, indescribable connections you make with people along the way.

I was at bar and I run into one of Jon's friends. He calls John, and John tells me,"I'll be there in fifteen minutes! I want to see you, It's been forever!" I was so happy to hear from my old friend, and randomly at that. Unfortunately, it was late and my boyfriend was ready to go before Jon came to the bar. So I guess i'll see him another time? Although, I thought when would I ever just see him? Both of our schedules are completely different? BLah. blah. blah. The usual justifications you make to yourself, to make life a little easier.

Me and Jon spoke through text several weeks later. We were finally to hang out. But that night I canceled again. I can see him anytime I said. "Sorry tonight isn't a good, sometime soon though!" The last text I would ever send to him.

It's 4:30 am. I charge my dead phone and see all the text messages. So many that I can't even read one, without ten more popping up at the same time. The calls we're from my mother, all my best friends, people I haven't heard from since high-school, and I'm 24 almost 25 years old now. SOMETHING IS WRONG. That's about all I know...

I check my voice mail. I have to listen through half of thirty "unheard massages" before I even get to the important one, the one about all the calls. Angela. What? "Jon's died in a car-wreck with Justin. The wake is tomorrow. I hope to see you there."

A million thoughts went through my mind. A million regrets, " If only I hadn't canceled?!" Why did I do that. How could I do that. And at 4:30 there is not any one to talk to, just the ability to torture yourself with your own regrets.

I'll always love you Jon Brown. And No, Jonathon Alan Brown is not a pseudonym. Thanks for putting joy in my life and lives of so many others. You touched so many people along the way. Your soul is pure and I am so blessed to have been even just a small chapter in your short life. Rest in Peace Jonboy. Your forever in my heart and thoughts.

Positive

Sorry that i started my first post so angry. It just happened to be that I went through a day of hell on the phone with bank of america. ok done talking about that one.....

so, I thought i would post a few pictures of myself and explain a little about who i am. I am twenty four years old, and a graduate of the university of georgia. I majored in sociology with a minor in website design/development. My ultimate goal is to start my own web developing company. I would love to do this for the following reasons: a. It would be awesome to work for myself! (no minions!) lol. b. I would not be tied down in any state, i could, hypothetically, just leave the country on a whim, and still get my work done. c. When I have children to raise, I can work from home! (then i wouldn't be the housewife who lived off her husband, I want to be self-sufficient.) d. I would be a nice boss and understanding, unlike most corporate bosses, who are so caught up in "corporate rules & regulations." lame. e. It would feel incredible to build something from the ground up and watch it grow (hopefully :)). Those are just a few of the reasons why i want to own my on web developing company. I'm just glad that I have a goal that is foreseeable and realistic. I can not lie, it feels DAMN good. ha. On the contrary, I'm just a girl with a dream, who is absorbing all the knowledge I can get right now. I love music, films, or anything remotely artistic. I absolutely love David Bowie and Queen. Also, I am in love with lady gaga right now. She is the next Madonna, just watch. I love all underground music, not because it is "underground," just that it usually much better than mainstream music. I love films especially wes anderson, martin scorsese, guy ritchie, gus van sant, takeshi miki, etc.

life has not always been so great for me. Ive struggled with an addiction problem for the past four years. Luckily I made it out without too many scars, and i can tell the story. not that it's a good one and I hate talking about it. But i'm sure I will refer to it plenty of times throughout my blog, seeing as it has consumed my life for a while. No longer, thank god, but you never forget, I may block it out as much as I want, but any word could trigger the wrong memory.... so Yes, it is a process, but I KNOW i'll be just fine.