12.21.2013

Visions of you...


Visions of you in the car,
the wind blowing through my hair,
I look over at you and smile.
I feel this sensation in my heart,
like I’ve always wanted.
Now, I know what it means to be alive.
A beautiful thing that can never be fully expressed.
All I can say is thank you…
Thank you for loving me.
I know I;m difficult at times, but you got me.
You got me by the heart strings.
I know you still don’t know how much I love you.
But, baby I do. I do love you.
I love just being next to you.
Nothing translates better than waking up next to you.
Baby, You’re all I know that’s true… Thank you.

12.12.2013

There's no remedy, for a memory...


This life is so beautifully tragic, yet, full of hope and desire. It's a roller coaster of emotions, images, experiences, and vibes. The most touching moments, and the memories that are projected over and over, playing the same song, are usually the most destructive ones. However, they are moments I would never take back. They are events that are engraved in my heart and etched in my brain forever. These are the moments we live for. However, contradictory they are, they are priceless. I love you. I love you. I love you. Even if it's only what it was. It was beautiful. Thank you. I'm forever indebted.

12.11.2013

You've got everything now

Old writing...recording it.

As merry as the days were long
I was right and you were wrong.

Back at the old grey school
I would win & you would lose.

But, you've got everything now.
You've got everything now.
And, what a terrible mess
I've made of my life,
Oh, what a mess I've made of my life.

No, I've never had a job.
Because I've never wanted one.

I've seen you smile
But, I've never really heard you laugh.

So, tell me who is rich and who is poor?

You are you're mother's only son.
And, you're a desperate one.
Ooohh...

But, I don't want a lover.
I just wanna be seen...ohh...
In the back of your car.

A friendship sadly lost?
Well this is true, and yet false.

But, did I tell you by the way, I never did like your face.

No, I've never had a job,
Because, I've never wanted one.

I've seen you smile, but I've never really heard you laugh.
So, who is rich and who is poor?
I can't say.....

Oh, you are you're mother's only son.
And, your a desperate one.
ooohh...

But, I don't wanna be your lover.
I just wanna be tied ...to the back of your car.
to the back of your car.
to the back of your car.
to the back of your car.
to the back of your car.
to the back of your car.
Oooooh...

oooh baby.

I can only say, yes, it hurts,when it all falls apart.
Yes, I know, that too my dear.
Life is a complicated mess.

You're heart is heavy with stress.
That's not you're fault.
Not yours. Not yours.....Maybe I'm the only one who know why.

Don't bear it my love,
Just come back
come back
where you know you belong.

See my dear, it's not so bad here.
Our world is beautiful, tiny pieces of me tattooed on your heart and engraved in your soul.
Our complete hearts overlap into a whole.

Things can never be so bad, lying here, knowing I'll awake next to you.
to you.
to you.

See my dear,
So just come back.
come back.
come back.
come back to where you know you belong.

It's beautiful here. Stay awhile, my dear.

12.07.2013

What's really going on...


So, you wanna tell me what you really think?
Awkward silences are just not for me.
Choke that shit out, puuhlease.
This bullshit tension burns like salt on a wound,
Fuck, I'd rather know my tomb.
What the fuck is up?
Tell me something real.
The fantasy is precedent of reality, I feel.
So, just communicate.
The we'll really know our fate.
Fuck being fake.
You can drop that shit to the bottom of the lake.
For fucks sake.

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